Not a Sin, Not a Sinner

Molly Steels

When a Tree Falls: A large pine tree fallen over on top of a church

I look around and see a place familiar yet distant. A whip-lash between alienation and closeness. It holds one sense of community while completely lacking another. There is a duality within this experience that makes it not as simple as staying or leaving.

Navigating can be done in a multitude of ways. The ultimate goal being a smooth transition with minimal snagging. Within my small town, I snagged. I grappled with my queerness through a sense of bending, flowing and resisting. An experience not uncommon for small town gays.

Within the Catholic school, church and casual conversation; heteronormativity was everywhere. We were told to hate the sin, love the sinner. A contradictory statement that left no room for true self-acceptance. Surrounding me was a mix of kind and unkind people, like in any town, but there was also this palpable sense of difference. This is how I was sold ideals that felt less and less possible as I grew up. A catalyst for trying to do it right but inherently failing. It is where I learned that it’s both freeing and confining to inherently defy a mold placed upon you.

But it just won't fit: A woman kneels on grass while facing away from the camera, she is trying to zip up a white communion dress that is too small for her.
an image of a young girl in a communion dress sitting on top of a white lace doily. There is an uprooted weed placed on top of the image over the girl's face.
Carrot Fields: two images of the same woman standing in front of a farm field on a sunny day. Her hair is being blown in the wind as she turns her head. In the first image the woman is out of focus and the background is sharp. In the second image the woman is in focus and the background is blurred.
Gram's Bible: A small yellow book titled " The brides bible" sits on top of a white doily with pink trim, which is on a wooden table.
Carrot Fields: two images of the same woman standing in front of a farm field on a sunny day. Her hair is being blown in the wind as she turns her head. In the first image the woman is out of focus and the background is sharp. In the second image the woman is in focus and the background is blurred.
Who I am Without All of You: A woman lays on her back on a bed with blue and yellow floral sheets, she is naked, has wet hair and is covering her chest while looking upwards. There is a bouquet of dried lavender beside her.
Let me in: a double exposed picture of a group of girls which is sitting on top of a lacy floral doily.
4 deer antlers sitting on grass with dead leafs. They are in order from smallest to largest.
An old beige building with a cross on the roof. The wall is cracked and decaying.
: an overhead shot of two hands creating an upside down cross with their fingers
Over Backwards: a woman bending backwards on a hill with her arms dangling beside her on a sunny day. In the background there is a skyline filled with townhouses, trees, a church and a water tower.
Molly Steels

Molly Steels

Molly Steels is a Toronto based image maker originally from Bradford, Ontario. She is currently pursuing a BFA in Image Arts and a minor in Sociology at Toronto Metropolitan University. Her practice often explores themes of vulnerability, identity and the human condition. She uses photography as a tool for self-expression, adventure and contemplating the world around her.